Thoughts from a mommy's heart

I feel like God wants me to share some thoughts, because I'm guessing I'm not the only mommy out there who is a little too hard on herself.  This month Caden was sick for a little over a week and was not sleeping well at all.  Which means, I was sleeping even less! Sleeplessness combined with sickness makes for one tired mama.  During the day I was feeling less than patient and the nights were worse.  I was feeling like a failure because I couldn't make things better and couldn't get him to sleep and was responding to situations in a way that was less than loving.  I started praying about these feelings of failure and started thinking of Scriptures to remind myself of who I am to God and what  He thinks about me.  The more I thought about it, I realized how, more often than not, at the end of the day, I would say I failed in some way.  So, what would make the day a success instead of a failure? If Caden took a good nap, if I responded in love and patience in each situation, if the kitchen was clean, if the laundry was caught up, if I prepared 3 healthy meals for my family, if I remembered to make time for my husband, remembering I'm a wife and not only a mommy, if I contacted my friends and family to encourage them and if I had my quiet time?  No wonder I feel like a failure, if that's my list! It's almost humorous when you read it, right?  Why do I hold myself to such standards? Why am I so hard on myself?  Where there's nothing wrong with the things on that list, I don't think God intended for me to feel this way.  So, I'm being more intentional about asking God what it is He wants me to do with my day and asking Him to remind me of the things that are important. Thankfully, He doesn't see failure when He looks at me and made no mistake when he gave me the task of raising Caden. I just have to rely on Him for the strength and wisdom to do it! Hopefully this will encourage your heart.